How do I do this thing, my gosh!

I've had several attempts to write well (including the first one) so other bloggers would post comments after I publish them, lol, . I've sign up several times in various display names hoping to create a good blog. I've read several and many blogs already, from the youngest to the oldest bloggers posts, to the professional and not so professional bloggers. I've surfed the web finding tutorials on how to make my blog more presentable and worth reading. But maybe, I don't know, I don't call myself stupid because I know how to make use of the present, past and future tenses and all the progressive tenses I've taken up in college, knows the subject-predicate principles and lots of things on the basics of good grammar and correct usage of the English language and yet I cannot write a blog. I've been so envious of those who had lots of things in mind that are able to turn it into a piece of writing, worth reading and worth clipping. I really pity myself, why I cannot do it while others can, or maybe because I create so high a standard in writing to the extent that not one of my attempts passes my own established standards. I've got one post which I did try for several times... just to be included in this Nablopomo group, as the qualification in joining here is being a blogger, which means you've got to have your own url in any of the blogpots. I made one at blogger.com to be qualified here However, the only thing mine there in that post is the first 4 lines and lol, I only copied/pasted the subject because the subject was of interest to me especially it's kinda useful in my job, but doing it myself, I really can't pick it up at the moment. Moreover, because of my unfulfilled dream, first to become a writer then simply this time, to be among you bloggers, my http://nestlingonwriting.blogspot.com evolved. Anyway, i've dropped that hope already in my mind so my blogs just come straight and easy this time. The thing is am writing, not because I want to prove to anyone that I can write, that I have good grammar and perfect English nor to impress anyone that, hey! there's someone there who really writes good. Am sorry, this time, am writing because I just feel I want to write, am publishing it not because of anything else, but to have a collection of the remnants of my day, of my feelings, especially those days where I was excited, I was kind of down and empty but most of all those moments where I feel these feelings have to be documented or else, it will just slip my mind and lo, gone. So, maybe this is a good start for me, cleansing myself of the mess I have on my head, like I can't write, I can't blog, I can't be like those others whose got all the beautiful words to describe their feelings for the day. I do not have those in me but at least I can write this little no matter what. As long as it is understood and I accept it as a document of the events of my life, then that's it. No one gonna stop me, lol!. So to all those, who are still under the slavery of their own ill feelings that they can't do it, that they can't blog and can't write, oh common, go out and challenge the world with what you can do. At this point in time. . .you be the judge please. . . have I done a little justice to myself?